So, after the Great Slim Down I realized that the large size swim suits I owned no longer fit and made me look like a twig in a gunny sack (my mother's favorite saving). My goal had been to get myself into a bikini, like this one. I probably still could but I don't feel quite toned up enough for all of that middle area to be exposed to sun and the public just yet....maybe by the end of the summer.
After a discussion with SF, she agreed that while I could "make do" with the suits that were two sizes to big, I would be unable to entertain guests in them or go to any pool parties in them. Her suggestion. "Let's head to Macy's for the Memorial Day Sale." We did and I was quite upset at first. It seems that the store had arranged the swimsuit area to showcase the itsy bitsy suits and had the ones with more fabric a little tucked away. SF had her eyes on a rack (focus - rack of suits.....nothing else). I wandered over and she asked me what I thought of a tankini.
That set me to try and answer her in a quick and concise manner. I had avoided them in the past because I didn't care for the tops. Many of them were designed for girls/ladies with firmer tops and middles and I didn't feel that they had enough support or tummy control. She understood but pointed out that the ones she was looking at seemed to be made for more adult figures and I should possibly just try on a few. Not having any valid reason to counter with I agreed. I knew that I wanted something brown (makes my tan look better...or so I like to think). We quickly selected the bottoms in brown and grabbed the three tops I liked the best. I was quite pleased with all three tops; however, one was the most flattering.
I came home with this one. The exact version as seen in the Dillard's on-line store. For whatever reason, Macy's does not have this version on-line. It still does not have the tummy control I would have really liked but I can live with that. It is more about the fact that I like what I see even without the tummy control and without the normal underwire I usually demand. With SF under the weather most of the long weekend I was only in it for two hours on Sunday and three on Monday. It is comfortable and I don't feel as self-conscious as I thought that I would. I'm even considering going back to Macy's to see if there are any more tops that I would consider wearing and getting a second suit. I may have to go to the Memorial City Mall location of the Sugar Land location, as they are larger stores and might possibly have a bigger selection to choose from. I saw this version at the Dillard's on-line store and would love it if Macy's happened to carry it as well.
Either way...I'll keep you posted. Who knows, I may even work myself into that bikini if my self-esteem issues will get the hell out of the way....