"I have never felt that anything really mattered but the satisfaction of knowing that you stood for the things in which you believed and had done the very best you could." - Eleanor Roosevelt

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Where did six whole days go?

I can't believe that I have not posted since last Thursday. I have been very busy but I will do the Reader's Digest version for your sake....

Friday I was able to leave at 1:30 PM. It was a blessing. I was able to get the last load of belongings from the apartment and get the payment to the maid for cleaning it so well. That was the best $50.00 ever spent! Sunday I turned in the keys and the final utility payment. It was bittersweet.

Hard to believe that one year ago Saturday I was moving into the apartment. I was full of loneliness and fear about what would happen in my life. I was wrought with depression and self-doubt. I was floundering, separated from my house and the life I had known for the last ten and a half years.

I am pleased to say that I have come full circle. After seeking professional assistance I have learned to control what I need to, to ask for help when I need it, and to accept myself for who I am. I have accepted the past as the past and will continue to learn from it as I grow and move forward.

I skipped over Saturday and need to back-track. We both got much needed cuts, color, and high-lights in preparation for the July trip. I have pictures of the new "do" and will be finally able to download them from the camera tonight. After the hair, we ate at Hooters and rode the motorcycle the rest of the day. It was amazing! I wore my new helmet for the first time and what a difference it made!

Sunday after I returned, we did some light house work and laundry and spent the evening watching TV and talking about some issues that we needed to resolve. Nothing major, just normal stuff that pops up when two people try to merge different lifestyles together into one.

Monday was a long day, as I did not sleep well. I am still getting acclimated to the noises of the house and my head wouldn't stop thinking of stuff either. We had breakfast for dinner, which was a real treat for me.

Tuesday was easy. I had to get some groceries before I got home and then I made a light dinner. We have been watching the Women's Softball Championship and last night we watched part of game two between Florida and Washington.

Bed time rolls around early (8:00 PM) most nights because we are up at 4:15 AM Monday through Friday. We are getting into a routine that works for all six of us and still allows SF time with Frankie and Ambre while I have time with Sassy and Eraser. We are also still working out our "down" time so that we both have time alone to re-charge and let go of issues that followed us home from work.

Hopefully the network I designed and set up last night works tonight and I will be able to post Thoughts on Thursday from my new location and share some pictures. Keep your fingers crossed but do not hold your breath....


Anonymous said...

I am so happy for you, with your move and your decision to move on with all things in your life. You've really come a long way in a years time!

*hugs* Coming full circle can be one of life's most glorious things. John and I are testament to that!

Miss Ginger Grant said...

Hey! Hope you can make it to my show at the BRB on Sunday! Party starts at 3, show starts at 4!! Bring friends!!! Check out my blog for deets!

Megan said...

What an amazing year you have had! Congratulations.